I keep saying how I’m going to post recordings an emails and just so happens today I’m in the middle of writing an email. It’s time to make a difference. This behavior has nothing to do with the emails and documents that I have but the documentary that I I’m desperately looking to make does show that Mental Health is under attack and stigmas are the monsters not the people that need the support. This is and will be the build-up from a child becoming an adult the problem with suicide and homelessness. Wake up everyone. There had not been one presidential candidate who has spoken about special needs it’s only categorized in a debate between comprehensive gun laws.
This is the email I was writing I ask any writers, publishes, directors and investigative reporters to take me on and help prove everything I speak of…
THIS IS WRONG. More harm is done then good between all agencies and institutions that are representing themselves as support systems. The only person who is not attached to this email is my daughter’s CCO. The reason for this she does not know I am on the autistic spectrum, I made that mistake once with (****agency) and I am paying for it every day since. But I also realized it is not just one agency or one institution, though (****agency) is the one who has depleted me the most. I know what it’s like to be a parent and have a adult child needing all kinds of supports and services but I also know what it’s like to navigate these necessities as an adult on the autistic spectrum for my adult child. It is nothing like fighting school districts for an IEP to accommodate what is in the best interest of our children, and boy don’t get me wrong early intervention through high school is a long hard fight for what would be expected for helping our young babies all the way through adolescence. But adulthood services is a shadowy facade with the unawareness of this making it even harder to fix. Surveys are given people are asked to contribute for opinions and ideas which is a wonderful contribution an effort but it is not what makes the broken fixed. Stigma is the issue and it’s like a cancer if you don’t get it out it will kill you. Stigmas for mental health I like stigmas of racism. People may not be racist so they say and think but it is a underlining mindset in some people conscious and in others not but it is how people have been raised for years and this cannot change until we look within our own self. What I have come across in the four years navigating the system as an adult on the spectrum for services for my adult child on the autistic spectrum there is this rationalization people are fooled with. If we care about our clients and we give 100% and out of our way this makes everything right and good. This is the misconception and problem why people don’t see past their own nose within all stigmas. I believe many people do care and give more then a hundred percent, but even if this is true it does not change the mere fact what the belief system is about the clientele they are caring for. This disease of stigmas are more damaging and flow fluidly among the very agencies and institutions geared to help. There’s broad variety of disabilities, though the support from these agencies is misrepresented from the outside to the inside. I believe the intentions are in the right place for many people and the changes for change are well meant but it is only showing a perception that is false and within these agencies and institutions, that are meant to be supportive truly still have a blanketed a one-size-fits-all mindset with a carte blanche attitude. What is considered supportive services the support is missing and only services are given. And the vicious cycle is the services that are given go right around to the very same issues of stigmas. My daughter has been an adult in the system for four years and she has not been given half, not even a quarter of what she is needs and was approved for. No growth no goals nothing is taken to any extreme to help real support everything is counterproductive and only contributes to more stress, more anxiety, dismissing and demeaning individuals. The difference is my daughter hasn’t grown to have enough experience and realize it but on the contrary I have been by her side every step to teach her the differences what are the right and wrong ways people need to treat each other, but in these four years as an adult, people could have guided to teaching her and showing her, giving her the experiences, like her goals are meant for. These four years has only been an experience that is truly disgraceful. My daughter is doing extremely and exceptionally well but it was a trade-off and that trade-off was me. The lesson in this email is I started four years ago as a strong independent woman and now after navigate services for my daughter it has broken me. How was it ever expected for a child who turns 18 with a diagnosis of autism and schizophrenia be able to navigate any of these services without support and for the past two years she has been living independently. The point is if I could not have done this without braking how could she have and I am sure many others experience the same. I always keep speaking about the reasons for homelessness and suicides. People need to think about this because nothing is really changing within navigating and receiving comprehensible support. I have been my daughter’s legal guardian since she turned 18, and I know that I have been ignored, dismissed and humiliated by (****agency), but these actions I’ve experienced with (****agency), (agency), (***********agency) show a bigger problem. I keep saying one day I will expose the chaotic chaos, and I always say it’s not about vengeance but with love and kindness and not for me or J but for the children that that haven’t been born yet and for the children that will become adults one day. Mental Health has a way to go same like racism from not being segregated and women not being able to vote, this is no difference. I am 52 years old and I was a child in institutions and because of the mistreatment and abuse I tried to take my own life and put myself in a coma, so can I say things have changed from then of course but we are so far from the stigmatized stigmas from the very institutions and agencies themselves. Until this is looked at honestly within the support systems stigmas will be the largest diagnosis that continues to be undiagnosed and the largest illness for homelessness and suicides.
PS. TO (Fagency, this is not a curse, it’s the name) I HAVE SAID AND ASKED MANY TIMES I WOULD LIKE TO HELP WITHIN YOUR AGENCY. I HAVE SAID MANY TIMES THAT I HAVE SERIOUS DOCUMENTATION RECORDINGS AND EMAILS THAT DISCREDITS YOUR ORGANIZATION AND STILL IN MY HEART THE ONLY THING I WANT TO DO IS MAKE AWARENESS TO HOW THINGS NEED TO BE CHANGED WITHIN MOST SYSTEMS ACCOMMODATING PEOPLE WITH DISABILITIES, SPECIAL NEEDS AND CHALLENGES. IT WILL BE NOTICED THAT I HAVE NEVER USED F***’s AGENCY’S NAME TO DISCREDIT THEM. I WILL NOT AND HAVE NOT EVER SPOKEN BEHIND SOMEONE’S BACK THOUGH IT IS TIME NOT TO HUMILIATE YOUR AGENCY OR THE INDIVIDUALS AS I HAVE BEEN SAYING ALL ALONG BUT IT’S TIME TO TELL THE TRUTH AND TO CHANGE WHERE ALL CHANGES NEED TO BE WITHIN EACH AND EVERY RESPONSIBLE ORGANIZATION THAT COMMITS THEMSELVES TO HELPING THE ONES WHO NEED IT!
love from my heart
peace from my soul