walking out my door
i can’t do any more
nothing is for sure
there is no predictability
and never any certainty
nothing now comes easily

or goes smoothly

my only company

is the anxiety
that is trapped

deep inside of me

and won’t go free
between twenty and fourty
i had a family

and was a mommy

with more capability

now life’s majority

has such intensity

from the years recently

and now currently

yes, pathetically

and unfortunately

it had been consistently