my feelings and thoughts

i don’t choose

the differences i start to confuse
i really want or need you to call
i’m afraid soon i will fall
and my hard work
i’ll lose it all
i am standing strong
but scared something
will go wrong

everything could quickly turn
even though i’m being sturn

PLEASE DR. SPAN
the dark place

i don’t want to return
experience is how i learn
things go good
then they burn
up in smoke
with anxiety i start to choke
once it’s done
it can’t be revoked
any success will be a mess

it won’t matter to me
not necessarily
but most likely
i will loss all capability
to adequately see
i go blind
when not in the right mind
then my behavior
starts to wither
what ever comes next
leaves me bitter
you think over time
i would figure
to start and consider
any action
and remember
there’s no retraction
the way i act
for someone my age
it’s only humiliation
though you always
give me the impression
you don’t feel to quit
and with me
your so patient
but your point i never get
that i shouldn’t let
myself be so upset
anyway
i’m jumping to conclusion
maybe we won’t talk
and there’s another resolution

but in the position

of uncertainty of this situation